How I Balance Being a mom and a Content Creator without Losing Myself

Being a mom and a content creator is beautiful and exhausting. Here's what it really looks like to juggle both and still hold on to who you are underneath it all.

Let's be real! No one talks about this part

When you become a mom, people love to warn you about the sleepless nights, the laundry mountains, and the tiny fingerprints on every surface you clean. But waht they don't warn you about?

How easy it is to lose yourself.

Not all at once. Slowly. Quietly. Like one day you wake up and realize your name isn't even being used anymore. It's just mom. And you love being mom. You fight dragons for your kids, but sometimes? You miss being you.

I'm a mom, and that's not all I am

Some days my whole world revolves around snacks, schedules, and finding lost toys. I'm the default parent. The one who keeps the house running, the kids fed, the family functioning.

But I'm also the girl who used to stay up writing fanfiction at 2AM. The girl who built a dreamy blog. The one who loves horse games, anime, and aesthetic pastel everything.

And I refuse to believe I have to choose between her and being a good mom.

I'm a creator and that's not selfish

Let's talk about that guilt for a second.

The guilt when you open your laptop while the dishes sit.

The guilt when your kid watches a show so you can edit a blog post.

The guilt when you love creating and it lights you up, even though no one else seems to get it.

That guilt? I'm throwing it out. Because being a creator isn't selfish. It's scared. It's healing. It's reclaiming a part of myself that doesn't' exist for anyone else.

And Yes.....I'm still me

I'm still the girl who cries over anime. Still the girl who gets unreasonable excited over new branding colors. Still the girl who lights a candle, plays lo-fi, and plans her week like it's a main quest in a cozy game.

Motherhood didn't erase her; she just got really quiet for a while.

I've had to fight to bring her back. To give her room. To not feel bad when she shows up in pastel and starts dreaming again. Because my kids deserve to see their mom whole. Not just selfless. Not just tired. WHOLE.

The juggle is real (and it's not pretty)

Being a mom and a creator means

Writing blog post with one hand and trying to fix a broken toy

Editing graphics at midnight because it's the only quiet time you get

Wondering if you're doing too much or not enough (at the same time)

There's no "balance" it's more like .....juggling flaming swords while wearing fuzzy socks and hoping no one cries mom.

But it's mine. And it's worth it.

If you're a mama who's trying to do both.....

I see you. I am you.

This blog, this cozy space I've built. It's proof that you can still dream. Still create. Still heal. Even with a house full of tiny humans. Even if you're tired. Even if you're scared.

You're not too much. You're not falling behind. You're just the thick of building something beautiful, messy, and real.

Your identity isn't a trade-off

Being a mom made me softer.

Being a creator made me braver.

Being both? That made me unstoppable.

So no, I don't always have balance. But I do have purpose, passion, and a damn good reason to keep showing up! For them, and for me.